The kidlets’ school has started Red Ribbon Week. They had a great stunt bike team come out and perform for them. They loved it! Of course, with my daredevil kidlets, I was relieved to hear them say more than once “not to try this at home”. I can just see Kidlet Sr. trying it just to see if he can do it. *shudder* They were great fun to watch, though.
Both kids will come home this week with tons of questions and information about drugs and alcohol and the dangers of them. Oh, how I hope they can stand strong against them when push comes to shove. (But don’t all of us parents pray for that?)
It caused me to start thinking about how much information they need ro know about my addiction. As of now, they don’t know about it. Oh sure, they know about the time when Mom wasn’t the way she is now. They don’t know why. And sure, they remember when I went to “meetings”, but they don’t know what the meetings were for. (As many PTA meetings as I go to now, they probably think that everyone goes to some meeting or another all the time.) Neither one of them has put it together. (As far as I know.)
I just want them to know that they are at a higher risk. At least, if what they (they being the “experts” on addiction) say about it possibly being genetic or that some people can be predisposed to addictions. All that crap that makes me stop and really and wonder just what is true about addictions. And if I tell them, when? How old should they be?
Don’t get me wrong. I have no problems telling you. You have nothing to lose knowing this. They can lose the vision of who their mommy is (how they see me). I don’t want to mess that up. I don’t think now is the time to talk to them about it. But when is a good time?
I don’t think I am really asking you about this. Okay, maybe I am. I don’t know. It just really got me thinking about it.
As long as they don’t start up a “Pledge to Be Sex Free” week and I have to start answering questions about that, I will be fine. Although I am thinking of sticking with the answer of “You may never have sex until you are married and you are ready to procreate, and then just that one time.” Do you think that will work?
No, I don’t either.
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