In Loving Memory- (Wo)man’s Best Friend

Harley Oct 12, 2004-January 3, 2009

Harley Oct 12, 2004-January 3, 2009

Today we are very sad here at home.  Our “fur baby” Harley passed away.  His cancer was just too much for him to fight anymore.  When he was diagnosed, they gave him 4-6 weeks to live.  He gave us 5 months full of life.  Our sweet Doberbutt was a strong fighter.

Clint and I were with him when he passed away.  It was peaceful and heartbreaking but he was not alone.  He was being loved and kissed on and held the entire time.  I didn’t want to soak his face in my tears but I couldn’t help it.  I kept eye contact with him as long as he could.  And then he was gone.

I just miss him.  I wait to hear him come up behind me and nudge me to go outside.  I still walk cautiously afraid he is going to come barrelling around a corner and take me down.  I keep waiting for that cold nose on my arm just wanting my attention.

I remember bringing him home and how sweet he was.  Such a  tiny little Doberman. Little did we know how big he would get later!  I admit it did take me a while to bond with him.  Calling him Sir Craps A Lot wasn’t the best bonding tactic but it worked at the time and we moved passed that to being the best of nap buddies.  All I had to say was, “Let’s take a nap!” and he was off like a shot in bed with is head on the pillow before I could even get out of the room. But we did bond.   I think the fact that I bit him (yes, I bit our dog) sealed our tight bond and closeness.  Well, that and the fact that we would place chase through the house when we were bored.

When Mom died, he was the one who sat with me hour after hour while I cried my eyes out and felt so lost.  He let me scream and then weep and then scream some more.  Never leaving my side.  He helped me get through one of the darkest times of my life.  Always there to snuggle or run or just be there. He was my friend.  He was my confidant.  He was my sweet fur baby.

I will cherish the few short years we had with him.

But, oh, how I miss him already.


  1. Oh Jenn, I’m so sorry. Our pets are as much a part of our family as the spouse and the kids – some people might not agree but that’s how I feel – and when we lose ANYTHING we love, we need time to grieve. I hope you can feel this big hug I’m sending you, over the miles. If I could reach that far, I’d bake you some homemade bread and fix you some soup. And stand over you while you ate it.

    My sympathies, hon.

  2. My sympathies are with you and your family Jenn. Those who have never felt the love of a fur baby won’t understand the loss we feel when they move on. {{{hugs}}}

  3. I’m so sorry Jenn. We just lost our beloved fur baby (our kitty, Jasper) not even a month ago so I know exactly what your feeling. It’s heartbreaking. I’m glad you got to be there with him when he passed, letting him know how much you love you him and will miss him. Sending cyberhugs your way.

  4. Oh sweetie. Such a heart breaking post.

    Sending you a hug across the ocean…

  5. De-lurking to send my sympathies. What a gorgeous boy he was. I can’t begin to imagine what I’ll do if and when something happens to my boy Leo. It really is as hard as losing a human family member.

  6. Oh, I’m so sorry. Our first “child” is 15 1/2 years old. I’ve mostly deluded myself into thinking she’ll live forever, but realistically we’ll be where you are sooner rather than later. Allow yourself to grieve. It’s a huge loss.

  7. Oh, I am so sorry. He was a beautiful dog and practically still a puppy. 🙁

  8. I’m so sorry. They become like members of the family.


  9. I am really sorry to hear it Jenn. It just breaks my heart.

  10. I’m SO sorry Jen. Sending you a hug!

  11. oh you poor thing. I totally understand your pain. My Tundra died 13 months ago and I still miss him every day. we got a new girl, but I wonder if she will ever mean as much to me. gentle hugs to you.

  12. My sympathies. What is it about those big dobermans that makes them so special? I sure miss our two also.

  13. I’m so sorry. xoxoxo.

  14. Oh, Jenn…I’m so sorry. I know how sad this is. Our fur babies become part of our families and when we lose them it’s devastating.

    I remember crying for days when my first dog passed away. I’m here for you. -hugs-

  15. Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

    Author unknown…

  16. I’m so sorry. So sorry.

  17. I’m sorry for your loss.

  18. I’m so sorry Jenn.

  19. I’m so sorry to hear about your family’s loss of Harley…

  20. What a beautiful dog and I’m so sorry for your lost..

    I’m glad you had this time More then anticipated..

    Dorothy from grammology

  21. As Poopy the Puppy lays here, up against my leg, I am crying for your poor Harley.

    Hugs honey.

  22. Just had to stop and say how sorry I am. 5 years is not enough!

  23. I’m so very sorry – your post brings tears to my eyes.

  24. Sorry to hear about your loss.

  25. Oh Jenn! Oh no! I think we need to just strike January from the calendar. 🙁 Love to you guys.

  26. I am so very sorry Jen. I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. I have no idea how I would handle the loss of my beloved dog. My thoughts are truly with you!! *hugs*

  27. I’m so very, very sorry to hear of your loss. He was a beautiful boy and sounds like an amazing companion.

    We lost our fur girl when she was young, too. In fact, it was the very month Harley was born, and she was just five years old at the time. I know exactly how difficult it is, and my thoughts will be with you as you grieve.

  28. I’m so sorry for your loss – he sounds like he was the perfect fur baby.

  29. I’m so sorry for you loss. Sending you a big cyberhug because I understand how so very, very painful it is. Sniff.

  30. Ohhh my gosh,hun,I’m so sorry.I can’t believe I’m sitting here so blurry-eyed I can’t see the screen very good.My heart goes out to you,cuz I cried for a long time when I lost Candy,my Shitzu.
    Bless your heart,I’m sending you a great big hug….my best friend swears there is a doggy-heaven,and I believe that wholeheartedly.

  31. 🙁 I’m sorry about you having to let Harley go 🙁 I saw the other news on FB though 🙂 good things right?

  32. Jenn I am so sorry to read that you lost him- he was such a beautiful dog and an adorable pup!

    Sending you some puppy kisses and love from our (over-stuffed) Moppet.

  33. We lost TWO fur-kids (cat and a dog)within two weeks of eachother!
    My heart goes out to you!

  34. Sending fur balls of love, your way.

  35. Oh God, Jenn….I had no idea we lost our pets within weeks of each other. I knew our dogs were both sick but ugh…I am so sorry for your loss and I know exactly how you feel. It’s so not fair.

    Hugs to you sweetie xoxoxoxox

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